Emptiness in me....

Silence, broken by the tweaking, squeaking sound coming from the jungle around the villa seems creepy. At times my imagination runs wild, so wild that I almost decided to go sleep, cover myself up in a blanket and wait for tomorrow to arrive. I am supposed to be extremely happy now, well as least I was a week ago when "J" said I could come visit him on 4th. Then, it became a mistake on the dates... and he will be out of town....I am not giving up as there is still a slight chance of him transiting and stay here....

I miss "J" but told myself not to hope for the impossible..... regardless I am still gonna idolize him, for what he has done and going to do......

The saying goes, when all doors are shut, there will be a window that is open for you.... 10.27 pm, an sms came it but I ignored it.... I was expecting some other friends...10.4opm, I looked at the blackberry and it says " hope you're enjoyin Bali, g'nite, x J " . My heart sank.......I really wish I could hug him again.....and never let go......

I wish I could see him soon....but meanwhile. I am determined to embark on my little project for the little people.... the children with that smile that melts your heart.....

Good night R & R.........
Good night Ubud............
Good night Bali..................